I'm trying like hell to start my new year positive and dieting to lose the baby depression weight. I'm trying like hell to not be depressed and hate life. But I don't think I'm really figuring out how to do that. K is struggling right along with me which I hate to see her in pain. We are surrounded by pregnant women and babies. And even though I would never deny anyone else any happiness and I would never want another woman to go through what I went through....It is so hard everyone's else’s joy in my face.
That may sound selfish. Maybe. But it's honest. I know one day that will change. I know time will heal me and time will ease my pain but for now everything is too new. Everything is too fresh and I relive the day my babies everyday.
So, I've cut out everything I love like sweets, pasta, rice, tortillas, etc. I love ice cream, Mexican food, junk food and I'm eating lean meat, egg whites and salads. I love to comfort eat and I can't do that.
That's about it for now.
