It's another NO this cycle and yes, that is sad. But what is even more sad is that I think we've decided to stop trying.
While talking about our next try we decided to go through our finances. With everything laid out in front of us it was such a shock and such a wake up call to just how much we have spent on this already. What we owe because of TTC already.
I have no idea if we'll change our minds and go for another try or two. I doubt it, but I guess at this point anything is possible.
This is a very sad day in our lives. I hope I can keep on posting. I hope I can continue to be happy for all of my friends who have recently found out they are pregnant, and for the friends who will soon become pregnant. I hope I can get out of this bitter angry hole that I feel is so deep that I can't see any way out. I hope I can find the strength to know I will be living the rest of my life childless like Queerstork did and with as much grace as she did.
I want to thank all of you out there in blogland for all your support and I wish you all the best of luck in your journeys.
Abby & Kathy
1 year ago