Things have not been good since my last post. K is having such a hard time with everything. As all of you who have been following our journey for a while know...K got laid off last January. Now that the baby thing didn't work she is not just dealing with that loss, but now the realization that she doesn't have a full time job making what she made as an electrician. Oh, and lets not forget the fact that there really aren't any jobs out there either. The anger and depression has set in. Nothing I say helps. I'm taken wrong at every turn and god forbid I actually get stressed out because then everything starts to fall apart. So I stay up beat and hopeful which I think just annoys her. At least when she was TTC she felt like she had a purpose. She was working on a dream. That dream crashed and burned.
K's been going back and forth about a couple more tries. We have some leftover Bravelle and figured that for a mere $3000 we could get everything we need for 2 more tires which would run out her insurance and then be done. But as of yesterday (which was a terrible day) she doesn't even want to do that now.
We are leaving for vacation on Saturday. I'm really hoping that some relaxation does her some good. I know I need it.
This has been such a terrible year. Horrible. I know it will get better. I know this thing with K will pass. I know a job will come and money will come and hopefully when all is said and done K can still find happiness even without a child. But it's sure won't be a joyride waiting for that day to get here.
1 year ago