Now I wait

Things have slowed down.  We have an appt with the Doctor's Office counselor to get approved to use donor.  I guess they want to make sure I'm not crazy.  :)  Little do they know...ha ha ha

The office called and wants to push the diagnostic testing out to March or April so we don't risk too much time passing between the tests and the IVF procedure where they would require more current results. 

So for now I wait.  And while I'm waiting I'm spending 3 evenings a week in the gym with a trainer.  I had to pull out the bin with the clothes I packed away when I grew out of them and was able to pull out a few pairs of pants and a few blouses.  Some of my current pants are so baggie I look ridiculous.  But it feels good to see such results.

I'm becoming that girl I used to hate....The "I'll have an english muffin no butter" kind of girl.  But when you know 1 pat of butter is 100 calories and you work so hard to burn off a 100 calories you start to prioritize better.

Saturday is our anniversary.  17 years from the day we met.  We're going to start our day in a spin class.  Neither one of us has ever done one before.  But you can burn 600 calories in that hour and I'll need those extra calories to make up for the drinks I'm going to have when we go out to dinner that night.

Life is good at the moment.  A couple years ago I didn't know if I would actually say those words again. 

Moving forward

I've contacted the Doctor's Office regarding my diagnostic testing and a list of questions regarding the process and what I need clarification on.  I've also contacted the financial office for the Doctor's Office with my questions regarding that part of this whole process sending them a copy of my new insurance card.

Because of our age we have decided to move forward with IVF using donor egg and I will carry.  I know that donor egg isn't for everyone, but we feel good about our decision.  We originally thought about using K's eggs and I carry but after running the tests we decided that our best chances for success is donor egg. 

The wait-list right now is roughly 6 months which I've requested today to have us put on that list.  In the meantime I will get all of my testing done as well as continue to get my body ready by getting me as fit and as healthy as possible.

Very exciting.

IVF Seminar

The IVF Seminar didn't really tell me much that I already didn't know.  Now it's all up to me to get it all started....make all the necessary appointments....make all the phone calls.....secure the funds...etc. 

There were so many people at this thing last night.  The place was packed! I think only one other lesbian couple. 

I'm starting to make my list of all the things I need to set up and/or accomplish by the end of this month (which is only a little over two weeks away) for me to feel like we're on schedule with when we want this to happen. 

I feel like I have alot stress these days.  Besides IVF being on my mind, going back into debt to try for a family again, there are changes at work that may or may not be good (only time will tell), and trying to get my body in shape for this process when all I want to do is eat comfort food....It's really alot to deal with.  

In the end what is meant to be will happen and everything will be find.  But one thing I do know is I'm going to tell my trainer to KICK MY BUTT tonight so I work off some of this stress and anxiety.  I think that will help me feel better. :)

Have a great weekend everyone.