January 22nd is the next try. This one will be a frozen embryo transfer as well.
We are apart of the Attain Program. If you don't know what that is....It is
a "shared risk" program where basically I pay for 2 fresh tries and
if I got pregnant on the first try I over pay. That is my risk. Their risk is
for the cost of 2 fresh tries I get 3 fresh tries and 3 frozen tries. That is
their risk. If it takes me more then the cost of 2 fresh tries to get pregnant
they have over paid. And if I go through all 6 tries and end up with no baby at
all I get my money back. That is also their risk. Looks like we will bet
getting the better end of the deal with how things have been going. If my twins
carried to term I would have over paid and I would have gladly over paid.....
Well, anyway I got a call today from the financial people and they wanted to
make sure since this is my 3rd frozen transfer I only have 2 fresh tries left
after the January 22nd try. I actually got sad from that call. It's so hard
after such a devastating loss like having my twins die in my arms to stay
hopeful that one of these tries is going to work out. I want it to. My body is
ready to be pregnant, there is nothing medically wrong. I've been checked over
and over so now all I need is for an embryo to implant again. We know what went
wrong with the twins and we have a plan to prevent it from happening again but
I need these doctors to get me pregnant again.
I am not looking forward to Christmas. Actually I'm very anti-Christmas
these days but I'll go through the motions. Other then that there is nothing
much going on here.
1 year ago