Monday, March 30, 2015

10 weeks

I've hit the 10 week mark today.  Time is going by so slow.  Time went by so slow with my last pregnancy and I ended up losing that pregnancy so I'm so worried about this one.  Way more worried then I'm showing anyone.  We are going to tell family we're pregnant at 16 weeks but I still won't feel safe.  I lost the boys at 21 weeks.  I wish I could wait until 30 weeks.  But I can't live in a bubble. 

My life is changing.  Changing so much.  I thought I was good with change.  I thought I was strong but with all of this I'm figuring out that maybe I'm not so good with change.  Maybe I'm not as strong as I thought I was.  I don't know how I'm going to get through all of this.


  1. I did not experience a miscarriage but still with my first pregnancy I suffered from some depression and had a really hard time in the first trimester. In addition to being on a hormonal roller coaster you probably also have PTSD from the loss of your boys. Don't judge yourself by how you are feeling right now. You are doing great. You can do this. I'm cheering for you from afar. I really hope and pray that this baby makes it full term and is safe and happy in your arms for a lifetime. I'm thinking of you and wishing you all the best. Hang in there.

  2. Thank you Melissa! Your words came when I needed them the most.