Moving Forward....Finally

Mentioning in a previous post that we had decided to do IVF but with donor egg.  The success rate is much higher with both of being 40, or a little older :-(   

Last week I finally got the call.  After 8 months of being on a wait list I was called and told that I finally have a donor.  Now that we have accepted that donor we are now picking our male donor and getting all the paperwork in place. 

I'm expecting our first IVF to be January. 

This has been such a long journey so far.  Not that the journey is over by any means.  It is just starting up again.  But after everything I went through with surgeries and IUI and Kathy's numerous IUI tries just to end that phase with a miscarriage.  And then the last few years where I hit rock bottom and then started the healing process to prepare myself for now phase 2 of our journey. 

Not only did I receive a call about having a donor and being able to start IVF...Kathy and I got legally married  a few weeks ago and that same week I got a small promotion at work and I'm now working in a new group at work.  This is a lot of changes in a span of a few weeks. 

No matter what happens all of this has been a long time coming and I'm looking forward to the ride. :)

More to come....

It's been a long time....

I know it's been a long time since I post.  Not that anyone is waiting.  This blog has always been for me.  But even I feel like I've been away a very long time.

There is finally progress.  I saw the fertility doctor on Friday.  I had a sonogram and trial transfer done and I'm happy to say they went well.  My endometrosis has stayed away this time and he sees no reason to not move forward with IVF.

We've been on the egg donor list since February and they told me last week that we're looking at Sept (October at the latest) to have that donor in place.  (I'm 43...egg donor is the right way to go). 

I was so nervous about the appointment and what the tests were going to say that I was actually sick for 2 days before the appointment.  It was a huge relief to leave there with good news for once. 

The next step is shutting down my cycle for the next 2-3 months.  I had a huge blood clot in 2009 so I can't go on birth control so this is the best thing to do so they can regulate my cycle for IVF.

Now I have to wait again for a little while but I think it will fly by. 

I'm still going to the gym, working out with a trainer and trying so hard to get my body ready for this.  I'm still not where I want to be but all I can do is keep trying.

That's it for now. 

Update

Well, I was planning on going in this month for my pre-IVF testing but decided to wait till May.  I'm glad I did because for the first time ever I had the strangest cycle.  I wouldn't of known when to call the office to schedule testing because it kept starting and stopping.  Or it was barely there.  I just hope something isn't wrong with me to put a stop to our plans again.  It would break my heart.  So, fingers crossed next month is normal and the tests go well. 

The next step...

We met with the counselor yesterday.  A requirement when using donor anything.  We were approved and deemed mentally and emotionally fit.  Which thankfully after almost 3 years passing since we last had all those tries that failed, I finally do feel emotionally fit.  So, now it's just a matter of more paper work and getting the donor egg and sperm figured out. 

I'm working out like a mad woman.  I average 8 workouts a week and that's with taking weekends off.  My employer put in a very nice gym and locker rooms for employee use a couple years ago.  I come in very early and get in at least cardio but I also try and fit in abs and other strengthening exercises.  I'm then at my gym 3-4 evenings a week working out.  2-3 of those workouts are with a trainer.  After months of working out I'm finally beginning to love it.  I'm finally starting to feel the change in my body as well as my mind that I'm making the change to needing the workouts and not tolerating them or making myself do them.  When the snow is gone I'll split my morning workouts between the gym and walking the puppies.  They love walks so that will be fun to get back outside with them.  I just want to get my body ready for IVF.  I have some weight to lose.  I'm down 25 pounds and I've seemed to hit a plateau even though I know I'm still toning.  So, even though I've been improving my eating habits little by little I think it's time to become much more strict with that as well.  That and the added workouts should get the body losing again.

That's all I have for an update.  Keep us in your thoughts and I hope all is well in blogland.  :)

Now I wait

Things have slowed down.  We have an appt with the Doctor's Office counselor to get approved to use donor.  I guess they want to make sure I'm not crazy.  :)  Little do they know...ha ha ha

The office called and wants to push the diagnostic testing out to March or April so we don't risk too much time passing between the tests and the IVF procedure where they would require more current results. 

So for now I wait.  And while I'm waiting I'm spending 3 evenings a week in the gym with a trainer.  I had to pull out the bin with the clothes I packed away when I grew out of them and was able to pull out a few pairs of pants and a few blouses.  Some of my current pants are so baggie I look ridiculous.  But it feels good to see such results.

I'm becoming that girl I used to hate....The "I'll have an english muffin no butter" kind of girl.  But when you know 1 pat of butter is 100 calories and you work so hard to burn off a 100 calories you start to prioritize better.

Saturday is our anniversary.  17 years from the day we met.  We're going to start our day in a spin class.  Neither one of us has ever done one before.  But you can burn 600 calories in that hour and I'll need those extra calories to make up for the drinks I'm going to have when we go out to dinner that night.

Life is good at the moment.  A couple years ago I didn't know if I would actually say those words again.