posting just to post

I'm so tired today. Everything has been crazy.  I feel like all I want to do is crash and veg out all weekend but that isn't a possibility.  Tonight we are taking little Jonna to the movies and dinner tonight.  Tomorrow we have the washer repairman coming in the morning to look at the washer and then we have to run out and buy a twin bed and do some major grocery shopping because we will have Jonna in our home for 10 days starting Sunday.  So, this weekend will be jam packed!!

My ass is killing me from the progesterone shots.  They are creating lumps or knots under the skin and no amount of walking or heating pads or massage is helping them to go away and the pain is horrible. 

I don't feel pregnant which is scary.  I wasted $20 on expensive pregnancy test just to make sure it still says pregnant even though in my mind I know I'm 6 weeks but I had to see it again.

I have my ultrasound on Tuesday.  I hope everything is ok. 

I'm totally feeling sorry for myself these days.  My job is in limbo and my personal life is in overdrive.  Plus I found out today that my situation at work has become the topic of conversation and I'm being "gossiped" about.  Obviously they have nothing better to talk about. 

Wish me luck I get through the weekend.  :)

Update - Ultrasound

I had an ultrasound yesterday.  It is way too soon to see a baby or hear a heartbeat but they wanted to find the sack and make sure it is in the right place.

Great news!!!!  There is a sack and it is in the right place.  Actually to add even more good news the it is measuring right on schedule.  Yesterday I was 5w3d and our peanut measured at 5w2d.

I still consider this pregnancy fragile but so far so good.

BETA #5 736

My beta isn't rising as fast as it should or they would like. But it's still going up at a rate where there is still hope. We are going to have an ultrasound tomorrow to see if we can see anything.

BETA #4 - 480

The BETA is finally rising at the rate is should. They still haven't given me a due date because they are still "cautiously optimistic". There is an ultrasound scheduled for Thursday. We should be able to see something by then.

Relief....

Today's BETA 165

Today's BETA is up. It did not double but went up to 165 from 103 which is the 60% minimum that they consider a healthy rise. So, we are cautiously optimistic and I test again on Monday.

But if I'm being honest I feel like my body is rejecting it. I feel like I'm miscarrying. But if this little peanut is going to fight to stick with me then I'll deal with anything I have to.