Let me give you some history.
My brother is 42. He has 2 kids already by 2 different women. The first one, a girl who is now 17, he barely took care of. Was never on time with child support, ditched her on holidays to get high and was never a father. The second one, a boy around 12 years old, he has never seen this child. The mother didn't even put him on the birth certificate. I was the only person in his life until about 5 years ago when the mother cut me off too.
Now his new girlfriend, who he's only known since January, is pregnant.
Why is it an idiot like him can produce 3 children that he has no concept of how to take care of and I get none after all the money, time and medical intervention??? I don't even know that I'm really all that jealous. I feel sorry for this poor girl and the baby on the way. I just find it a bit ironic.
I'm looking forward to the day when I feel like the universe isn't out to get me. I must have been really bad in a former life....
Update about me....
- K and I have started a serious diet. It's time to get serious about taking care of ourselves.
- We have hired a landscaping guy to put a retaining wall in the front of the house and K and I will be putting in a patio 4th of July weekend. After putting so much time and effort into the inside of the house I love that I'll have some "curb appeal" in the front now.
- I think I'm going to be able to fly to Chicago and surprise my Dad for Father's Day. Fingers crossed that all comes together.
- I'm still working all the time. Counting the days till I'll be able to quit. 1500 days to go. :)
Hope everything is well in blogland.
It's not f*&$ing with. It's just preparing you to become the best Mom in all the world.
ReplyDeleteI'll be back to watch your journey.
Take care and good luck with that patio and suprise Father's Day trip.
Your Friend, m.
I empathize with your story about your brother because I experienced a similar thing with mine. I don't know what the universe is trying to teach us, all I know is that I want to get pregnant and am sick of seeing everyone else 'accidentally' pregnant. I feel you pain.
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ReplyDeleteMore proof that there is no logic or pattern to it all. The world is simply absurd.
its completely acceptable to feel that way. i would feel the same way also.
ReplyDeletei wrote a little rant the other day about people using abortions as birth control. Ive seen that a couple times and makes me so upset
A I totally get it.... I just found out the town playa girl who has slept with everyone and shacked up with her missus of 1 year tried once with IVF and her girl is pregnant (her girl already has one child)... and playa girl is already flirting around looking for the next girl to cheat on her with. Makes your blood boil doesnt it. People dont appreciate the huge privelige they have bringing children into this world
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