We got through the weekend....

We both worked Saturday and yesterday we were very productive. K is working on the basement putting in can lights and running more electrical down there. Our basement isn't technically a finished basement but when we're done it will look so good you will think it is. :)

The basement is the first thing that has to get finished so we can get the rest of the house ready for a baby's room. Yes, I said baby's room. K and I feel like the best thing to do is move forward with the plans for the house and preparing for getting pregnant again.

K goes in for bloodwork tomorrow and she'll talk to the RE's office about what the next step will be in this journey. I don't know if we'll get the green light to start again right away or if we'll be told to take off a month to rest.

We leave for Arizona in 9 days. That will be so nice. We'll spend a couple days in Scottsdale relaxing in a nice hotel with room service and then spend a week at K's Mom's house. It is probably the most relaxing place I have ever been. The house is up in the mountains with a wonderful view and it is just so peaceful. K's Mom is a great cook who insists on taking care of us. It is wonderful. Nothing to do except read a book, hike in the mountains and just relax.

Another Day

Just thought I'd pop in and let you all know we're still here. We are surviving. Barely.

This sounds so redundant today but thank you for all your kind words. Redundant because it wasn't that long ago I was thanking you all for kind words to our wonderful news. Now it's for all your support to our horrible news.

Of course we're both mad a the world, but trying like hell to not let it consume us.

She goes back to the doctor Tuesday for another bloodtest to confirm she miscarried. It was scheduled for Monday, but we changed it. She works Monday's. So, why disrupt her day and leave work for something she knows the answer to already.

We go on vacation soon. 2 weeks from now we'll be relaxing in Arizona. We really need it. It is still going to be very hard since she was going to tell her Mom she was pregnant on this trip.

It's all just so sad.

Our Worst Nightmare

K's spotting got worse. She called me crying yesterday in total fear that she was losing the baby. She called the RE's office, again. They again, reassured her that 50% of all woman spot/bleed in during the first trimester. They calmed her down, but just for more reassurance they had her come in today for another Beta instead of waiting until Friday. Our last beta was 170 2 days ago. Today was only 135. They said they were sorry, but it looked like there was no hope for a viable pregnancy.

My precious K is so devastated. It's not fair. But I guess you can say life isn't fair. We really only did have 2 tries left. Now we are down to one. We thought maybe just once something as wonderful as this was going to happen for us. We thought this was our time. Well, we weren't that lucky, but we still have eachother. And I am the luckiest girl in the world to have someone so wonderful who tried so hard to give me "The Ultimate Gift". And we knew love for our unborn child even if just for a few weeks.

Beta #2

Beta #2 was 170 at 17 days past IUI. Her first Beta was 36 4 days ago so doubling every 2 days we were looking for at least 144 or better. They will be doing another beta on Friday. We need that one to be 680 or more. I hear about all these Beta numbers that are so much higher at this stage. Of course just about everyone I know are having multiples, but I just hope these aren't low.

The nurse was able to calm her down a little, but I think this is going to be the norm for her for a while.

That's about it for now. Good thoughts only for a healthy 9 months and healthy baby!!

Going Crazy

K is going crazy. She has had some light spotting almost daily since we found out she was pregnant. For the most part it's that brownish color that they say is normal and you shouldn't worry. Sometimes it's a little more pink but this morning I got a call that it was red. She is really stressing out. I tell her not to worry and it's normal but she just can't calm down.

We go today for another beta and I've already called the office to see if we can get some time with one of the nurses so we can talk to someone about what's happening.

We really need this beta number to be great and I'm hoping for a quick exam so K can see that everything is ok.

Send good thoughts that nothing is wrong and we are just over reacting because we don't know any better.