Moving forward

I've contacted the Doctor's Office regarding my diagnostic testing and a list of questions regarding the process and what I need clarification on.  I've also contacted the financial office for the Doctor's Office with my questions regarding that part of this whole process sending them a copy of my new insurance card.

Because of our age we have decided to move forward with IVF using donor egg and I will carry.  I know that donor egg isn't for everyone, but we feel good about our decision.  We originally thought about using K's eggs and I carry but after running the tests we decided that our best chances for success is donor egg. 

The wait-list right now is roughly 6 months which I've requested today to have us put on that list.  In the meantime I will get all of my testing done as well as continue to get my body ready by getting me as fit and as healthy as possible.

Very exciting.

IVF Seminar

The IVF Seminar didn't really tell me much that I already didn't know.  Now it's all up to me to get it all started....make all the necessary appointments....make all the phone calls.....secure the funds...etc. 

There were so many people at this thing last night.  The place was packed! I think only one other lesbian couple. 

I'm starting to make my list of all the things I need to set up and/or accomplish by the end of this month (which is only a little over two weeks away) for me to feel like we're on schedule with when we want this to happen. 

I feel like I have alot stress these days.  Besides IVF being on my mind, going back into debt to try for a family again, there are changes at work that may or may not be good (only time will tell), and trying to get my body in shape for this process when all I want to do is eat comfort food....It's really alot to deal with.  

In the end what is meant to be will happen and everything will be find.  But one thing I do know is I'm going to tell my trainer to KICK MY BUTT tonight so I work off some of this stress and anxiety.  I think that will help me feel better. :)

Have a great weekend everyone.

2013 will be a GREAT year!!

2012 was a better year.  It took a lot of work to bounce back from all the bad that had happened and all the hurt that we went through but things are better.

2013 is going to a great year.  I can feel it.  I don't work two jobs anymore.  We live a much healthier life and workout with a trainer which will continue through 2013.  We are going to put everything we have into IVF.  If it works great.  If it doesn't I have made peace with that and I will move on.  We have decided that is it now or never. 

We are going to an informational meeting at the Fertility Doctor January 10th.  With that we'll get everything started.

I'm getting my body ready for the process.  I'm down 22 pounds as of this morning.  I am going to increase my workouts with my trainer soon and I guess all I can do is get myself as healthy as possible and let mother nature and a good doctor do the rest. 

I hope everyone out there has a safe New Years Eve and a great New Year!

Step One....Surgery....Done

I had surgery last Tuesday for my endometrosis.  I've known for 3-4 years that its been back so I knew I'd had to have it taken care to move forward with IVF.

It went well, but to my surprise it was much more serious then I thought it would be.  It was much more serious then my surgeon thought it would be.  There was ALOT of it.  I guess my right ovary was also a mess.  It was basically scar tissue and covered in endometrosis.  Which means that was removed as well as my tubes.  I felt gutted like a fish.  I felt so much worse this time then I did the last time. 

But the good thing is....It's done.  I just have to heal and in the meantime we'll start getting things in place for IVF. 

My surgeon said I'm back to normal and should have no problem getting pregnant. 

2013 is going to be an exciting year.

The Next Phase....IVF

The meeting with the baby doctor went really well and we have decided to move forward.  So far everything is falling into place like it's meant to be.  We are meant to try again.  We are having to make decisions pretty quickly.  Like, putting me on her insurance because her plan has a little bit of fertility coverage where I have none.  Will we use her eggs or donor eggs?  Go for one last try or pay more for multiple tries?  There is still so much to work out and so many tests that need to be run, but we both feel better about things this time.  Our eyes are more open this time and we know and are not under the delusion that a baby is guaranteed.  We just plan on being as aggressive as we can be...make the best decisions we can make and hope for the best.  Of course money will factor into these decisions.  But we plan on being as aggressive financially as we can be as well.  At the end of it all we can walk away no matter what the outcome knowing we did everything we could with no regrets.  The best thing is we are prepared for the outcome no matter what it is. 

Life is going to be a roller coaster again for the next 6 months to a year but we're ready for the ride.