Well, we see the RE on Wednesday to discuss K possibly carrying. Turns out K actually has a little bit of insurance coverage for monitored IUI's. Well, we were told that lab work and ultra sounds are covered. That is alot of the cost. Also, since she's not working full time at the moment doctor appointments aren't a problem. In the beginning especially if not through the entire process we'll still be scheduling appointments around my schedule because she doesn't want to go through this process without me. I don't think anyone is really comfortable with how exposed you feel with strangers all up in your private area but she's more private then most and really not comfortable with it. She'll need me to focus on until she realizes that it's not so bad. Personally I can't believe she's even ok with carrying. Never thought that would happen. Now I'm trying to accept the fact that I would be the non-bio Mom. I never thought that would happen. We've had all the talks to make her feel comfortable with being the non-bio Mom. I've given her the security of knowing that me having the baby didn't make her any less the Mom and how I would never let anyone in my family ever look at her as anything less then the Mom. Now I feel like I need those talks. I always had the security of knowing that if I was the bio-mom her family couldn't push me aside as someone not important. They don't always view wives, husbands or especially significant others as real family. Now, I have to worry about them really thinking of me as the baby's mommy. But K has stood up to them before. I just have to trust that she will make sure that they don't do that.
We've given my body a chance. Unfortunately because of cysts, blocked tubes and endometriosis it was short lived and cost us over $21,000 but it was a chance. It is time for me to let go and give K a chance.
Keep your fingers crossed we don't find something wrong with her too. I'll update later in the week.
1 year ago